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It’s been a little more than two months since Baxter crossed the Rainbow Bridge. We miss his furry little face every day, but we have so many memories of him to ease the pain.

The Early Years
Baxter was a very smart puppy. We took him to an obedience class at Pet Smart soon after we got him. He impressed the trainer, learning the commands quickly while the other dogs seemed to struggle, although the training treats were a great incentive. He learned the usual tricks – sit, high-five, shake hands – and every new visitor to our house was an opportunity to show off.

Peg taught him some unique tricks, like “let us pray” and “sign of peace” so he could join Sunday Mass on the television. I taught him “Bang, you’re dead,” which he did with a dramatic flair. Then I’d tell him to roll over and give him two treats for an Oscar-worthy performance. One trick he never learned was “put your toys back into your crate,” no matter how many times Peg tried. He’d look at her as if to say, “Why should I? That’s your job!”

Baxter lived with a cat before he came to us and adopted many cat habits. He liked to stretch out on the back of our couch. Sometimes when we picked him up from the groomer, we found him on the counter next to Miz Laura’s cat who either tolerated or ignored him.

He got so excited when we took him to the groomer, Miz Laura for “Spa Day.” He’d start squealing and jumping around the car when he realized where we were going. He strained against the leash until we got inside, then ran around in circles when Miz Laura came out to get him. They often let him roam free after his grooming. Miz Laura always put a bandana or necktie around his neck, and he looked really handsome!

He figured out how to get to the island in the middle of the kitchen by jumping from the couch to the dining room table to the counter and then the island. I learned to put meat into the microwave to rest after catching him mere inches from the “spoils of war.” Peg didn’t believe me when I told her about Baxter’s acrobatic feats. “He can’t jump that high!”

Her skepticism bit her in the ass the first Halloween with him. I was out of town on a job and Baxter got into leftover chicken bones she had left on the counter, which led to an emergency visit at the veterinarian’s office and a $300 bill. When she called, I said, “Thank you, Jesus,” having avoided the royal ass-chewing I would have gotten if it was my fault.

He loved sharing our dinner, but we quickly learned he wouldn’t eat his dry dog food nuggets if he got people food first. He didn’t like eating alone, so we’d sit in the family room while he dined, then we’d adjourn to the dining room for his “Taco Bell Fourth Meal.” He’d sit on the floor between us, or he would jump on the dining room chair next to me if the handouts weren’t coming fast enough. He’d jump on the table if he was particularly impatient.

And he was very fast. Once evening he grabbed a stick of butter off the table and flew to the floor before Peg could catch him. Another time he sat on the chair at the far end with his paws on the table while he eyed Peg’s steak intently, calculating his chances of success. I imagined Ennio Morricone’s Spaghetti Western music playing in that little brain.

When he got bored with the nuggets, he’d toss a toy into his bowl. Or he’d say, “Fuck the nuggies! I want your food!” We eventually switched to four-dollar-a can dog food, mixing in a bit of dry food for adequate nutrition, but there were still evenings when I ended up tossing it in the trash.

Baxter was a carnivore who loved any kind of meat, but he was especially fond of my brother-in-law’s pulled pork, cooked low and slow on his beloved smoker. One summer the family gathered at our house for pulled pork two Sundays in a row; Baxter thought he’d died and gone to doggie heaven. He was positively miffed when, the next Sunday, the family brought pizza. He gave a snort of disgust and retreated to the family room.

Baxter also loved sweet things like whipped cream, Dairy Queen and Culver’s frozen custard. I’d take him to Dairy Queen in the afternoon and we’d share a soft-serve cone. Usually, he dove into it but sometimes he would wait until the third or fourth offer before remembering, “Oh yeah, I like this stuff.” We often took Baxter with us when we went to Culver’s for a sundae, rewarding him with samples on the way home. He also enjoyed the Pumpkin Shake, available only in October and early November.

Our local grocery store Jewel shares the same parking lot with Culver’s. One evening Peg drove to Jewel to pick up a few things, taking Baxter along for the ride. (If I recall correctly, he ran to the car as soon as Peg opened the door to the garage.) He kept looking at Peg as she drove past Culver’s: “Wait. You’re not going to stop? Why did you bring me in the first place???”

The Guardian of the Cul-de-Sac
The Tibetans bred Shih-Tzus (which translates to “little lion” in Mandarin) from the Pekinese. Pug and Llhasa Apso. The little dogs were initially used to warn the royal court of intruders but later became companions. Baxter appointed himself as our guardian, standing sentinel at the patio door for any riffraff that might pose an imagined threat.

He went ballistic when people walked by and became more incensed if accompanied by a dog, large or small. It didn’t take long for him to figure out that whomever he saw from the patio door would reappear on the other side of the house. He’d run upstairs to the guest room, jump on the bed and continue yelling until they were out of sight. If anyone walked on the sidewalk in front of the house, he’d run back and forth between the guest room and our room, sounding more like a thundering herd of cattle than a fifteen-pound dog.

The Daily Rituals
I took him out to pee every morning and then fed him breakfast, followed by an insulin injection once he became diabetic. He used to demand a walk before I could have coffee, but as he got older, he was content to take the early morning nap, followed by a quick stretch before the late morning nap. We settled into a predictable routine which included daily afternoon recreation.

He loved car rides. When he wanted one, he would stare at me or jump onto the couch and paw my hand. If I asked, “Would you like a car ride” he would bark and go to the back door. Sometimes he’d run to the car if I opened the door to take the garbage out. Occasionally he’d try to con me into a ride at 11:00pm. Sometimes he’d get lucky, and I’d indulge him since a short trip around the neighborhood was enough.

He liked going for walks up to the playground near our house and back. I started taking him to another park after he yanked a muscle in his neck playing “whose dick is bigger” with the dog behind the neighbor’s fence. He couldn’t see her but knew she was there. That turned into a midnight visit to the emergency vet during COVID.

The Nightly Rituals
Baxter wanted to go upstairs at 5pm during the winter because it was dark and, in his mind, time for bed. We resorted to putting up a gate in the hall because otherwise he would run upstairs and start barking for us to join him. He’d reluctantly stay with us if we were watching television, but his patience ran out around 9pm, when he started pulling my socks off with his teeth.

I started eating a mozzarella stick at bedtime to keep my fasting blood sugar at a reasonable level; Baxter soon expected me to share. Our nighttime ritual evolved into a protein snack, several Old Mother Hubbard cookies, a drink of water and four pieces of Pill Pockets. If Peg wasn’t fast enough with the Pill Pockets, he climbed on her and tried to snatch the bag out of her fingers. His attitude towards cookies was, “We’re done when I say we’re done!” One night when he started barking for more Peg told him, “You’ve had enough!” The little shit then jumped off the bed, ran downstairs to one of his many stashes, brought a cookie back to the bedroom and devoured it while looking directly at Peg.

He slept at the foot of our bed, but I would move him closer to us before we went to sleep so he wouldn’t roll off the end. He growled but never opened his eyes. He used to love curling up in bed under my chin when it was cold; I’d listen to little puppy snores through the night. If he woke up before me, he would stare at me, willing me to get up.

Toys
Baxter loved ripping the appendages off his favorite stuffed toys. He went through several Gorillas and Dragons. He liked to pull the stuffing out of Panda and ripped out Peg’s repairs several times. He had a pink rabbit who, after having his ears and legs torn asunder, became a blob we nicknamed “Stinky Bunny,” well-marinated with doggy saliva. We tried to send Stinky Bunny to the farm upstate, but Baxter managed to rescue him from the trash.

Flying Bear was another favorite toy. He loved to grab it with his teeth and whip it back and forth. We tried to find a replacement when Flying Bear became overly ripe, but didn’t have any luck.

Quirks
He liked to lay on the couch’s footrest and watch television with us; he’d lay very still and stare intently. Sometimes the only way I knew he was still awake was when his ears would twitch. But several things would set him barking at the screen while jumping against the entertainment center:

The Buick jingle
Any program in black and white
Black people on TV (though not in person)
Animated films (Peg gave up trying to watch Disney’s Brave because he’d go berserk)
Animals on TV, even if he’d never seen one in person.

When I left for a job, he would put several of his toys on my office chair or in my spot on the couch. I guess he was keeping my spot warm. When I came back from Springfield, he knew when I was about 15 minutes from home, because he’d sit by the door to the garage. Peg called me and we’d count down the streets until I pulled into the garage. Sometimes he and I would bark at each other over the phone.

I learned to devote the day of my return from a job to the happy homecoming and indulge his every wish/demand. “Your ass is mine!” We had to go for a walk or a car ride IMMEDIATELY! I had to walk him for a walk every morning before he would let me work in my office.

Later years
Baxter liked to greet anyone coming into the house until he got older. Then he’d run upstairs, coming down only when he thought it was time for people to leave. He turned into a grumpy old fart like his daddy.

Baxter couldn’t easily get up on the bed in the guest room to survey his kingdom the last year he was with us, so he spent his time in a day bed on the floor in Peg’s office. He developed some quirky habits like scratching anything that struck his fancy: the filing cabinet; a binder on the floor; the trash can. Sometimes he would drag a piece of paper off one of the numerous piles on the floor and shred it. Peg would yell, “Stop that!” He’d give her that “What?” look and then resume digging, sometimes deliberately looking at her. He started knocking over a box of beef sticks under Peg’s desk. She would put them back in the box and he’d knock it over again. Eventually, she gave up.

Sometime during the summer, he developed the habit of wandering down the hallway like the night watchman before he finally settled down. He didn’t want to sleep on the bed with us, so I bought another doggy bed for our room. Some nights he preferred the bed in Peg’s office.

I think the most remarkable thing about dogs is they live in the moment. They don’t appear to grouse about getting older and I don’t think they ever contemplate mortality. Every day is a good day, even when it isn’t.

Vaya Con Dios, Mi Pequeño

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Several years ago we suspected Baxter had become diabetic and had a bladder infection. He was drinking even more water than he normally would during the summer, and he urinated large quantities more frequently. We took him to Dr. Laura, our veterinarian, with our concerns.

“Normally I’d question someone else’s diagnosis but you two are pretty astute and you’re probably right.”

His blood sugar was 600 and he did indeed have a bladder infection. Dogs usually do not develop Type 2 diabetes; their pancreatic islet cells just shut down completely. Insulin remains the only treatment but titrating the dose required a few all-day suckers for glucose curves. Baxter used to love going to see Dr. Laura but, after three glucose curves over a few months, he associated the veterinarian’s office with things unpleasant and traumatic.

Baxter did really well for the next few years. He adjusted to the insulin quickly after Peg promised him two training treats after each injection. His appetite was never a problem. I started taking him to a local park for his afternoon walk after he went berserk over the neighbors’ dog behind the fence and got a terrible neck muscle strain yanking on his leash. He developed a cataract in his right eye; diabetes and age would eventually take its toll on the rest of his vision. But he still appeared to be one happy (and demanding) puppy.

Dr. Laura discovered a lesion in Baxter’s mouth in May 2021 when he went in for his heartworm test.

“He’s got this black thing on his upper gum that wasn’t there a few months ago when we saw him for his dental, and I’m afraid it might be melanoma. It’s the most common location in dogs because of the hyperpigmentation of their oral mucosa. I want to get him in to remove it as soon as possible; then we’ll just wait for the pathology report.”

A week later she told us it was indeed canine melanoma, but with a low mitotic rate, giving us some hope, even though the lesion had appeared rather quickly. She suggested a consultation with the local veterinary oncology group so we made an appointment.

We were still in the middle of the COVID-19 pandemic so we sat in the car in the heat while one of the vet techs took Baxter inside for evaluation. The veterinary consultant came out to talk with us after about 45 minutes. She was young, sweet and well-meaning but lacked the pragmatism that comes with experience.

“If we don’t do anything, you can expect him to live about three to six months. We can do surgery to remove part of his jaw treat him with radiation, once a week for 6 weeks after he’s healed from the surgery. We’d have to sedate him every time he has radiation. That might give him more time, probably six to twelve months. Since he is diabetic, though, it’s important to keep him on a strict diet and feed him every 12 hours. He shouldn’t have any treats or people food.”

Peg and I glanced at each other. I imagined Baxter rolled his eyes and said, “Well, that ain’t gonna happen,” under his breath.

We thanked her and then talked it over with Dr. Laura.

“He’s fifteen years old and I can’t see putting him through such misery at his age. We can see him every six weeks to follow the tumor’s progress. If he stops eating or appears to be in pain, we can talk about what to do then.”

We agreed and took him home, hoping he would last at least until Christmas. The tumor slowly reappeared but it didn’t seem to bother him. Christmas came and went and when Baxter went in for his annual heartworm test in May 2022 and appeared to still be relatively healthy, Dr. Laura felt that he was more likely to die of something other than the melanoma, so she asked to see him in three months.

By the summer he was definitely slowing down. He spent most of the day sleeping, but he was lively when awake. His appetite was good and he still insisted on his bedtime Pill Pockets. (We joked about “opening another dime bag,” because they were running about eight bucks apiece.) His vision continued to deteriorate; he knew where his water bowl was and I had to guide him to his breakfast and dinner. Sometimes he would get stuck in a corner or beneath the dining room table and we’d have to coax him out.

He could usually make it up the stairs but he was reluctant to go down on his own because his vision was so poor (he’d tumbled down more than once). So he would call for his faithful manservant. I’d hear his collar jingle as he shook himself, then a low growl. If I was too slow to respond, he’s start barking with the classic Shih-Tzu “arf-arf.” (Translation: “It is so hard to find good help these days. I don’t know why I haven’t fired you!”)

I’d climb the stairs and kneel short of the top so we were face to face. I’d scratch his ears while he rubbed his head against me, then work my way back to a butt scratch and tummy rub. He’d wag his tail though not as furiously as when he was younger. I’d always ask for a kiss but he was notoriously stingy, only kissing early in the morning on rare occastion before he remembered he was a tough guy. “No kiss for you!”

Around August Baxter started sleeping poorly at night. He’d usually get up around 2:30am and I’d take him outside; some nights he got up every two hours. That I was retired and could nap during the day made it a lot easier.

By early October he often appeared dazed after his nap, as if he didn’t know where he was or what he wanted to do – doggy senior moments. When he peed by Peg’s desk chair, completely unaware, we pondered that which we’d been avoiding. Maybe it was getting close to his time.

I noticed his tongue flicking in and out when I went upstairs to get him for dinner on Wednesday. On Thursday he started shaking his head as if he had a Parkinson’s tremor. I took a couple of videos on my phone and showed them to Dr. Laura.

“That definitely looks like seizures. Once that starts to happen…”

Peg and I had long ago decided that we wanted him put down at home, especially since he’d become terrified of the vet’s office. Dr. Laura’s practice had become very busy because of COVID and her colleagues, like those of other practices, were stretched thin and she wouldn’t be able to come on short notice. But, she said, there were veterinarians whose sole purpose is providing our companions with the “death with dignity” humans are often denied. The Companion Animal Euthanasia Training Academy (CAETA) certifies practitioners in compassionate and painless in-home euthanasia, minimizing the stress for both the pet and their parents.

Baxter had a major seizure Friday morning about 2:00am and he was terrified. I took him downstairs and outside, but he didn’t need to pee. He just whimpered and shook. I lay down with him in the family room for the next half hour trying to calm him down, then took him back upstairs. He had another seizure around 4:00am but this time he seemed oblivious for which I was thankful.

Peg started calling practices. The first one was a group of three veterinarians but two were out with illness and the woman Peg spoke with said she couldn’t do anything until Monday. She then called Compassionate Heart and spoke with a wonderful woman who said she would be at ou

We felt at ease with Dr. Jessica as soon as we met. We sat in the living room while she talked about her professional history and making the transition from veterinary practice to doing exclusively palliative pet care and in-home euthanasia. She is certified by Fear Free®, an organization whose “mission is to prevent and alleviate fear, anxiety & stress in pets by inspiring and educating the people who care for them” and outlined the procedure.

“We strive to make this as stress-free as possible for him and for you. I usually start with a narcotic and sedative, but the sedative might induce a seizure, so I’ll just use the narcotic. As soon as he’s relaxed I’ll put in the IV catheter and I’ll use a topical anesthetic to minimize any pain. After that, I’ll give him Propofol to make him sleep. When you’re ready I’ll give him last injection, pentobarbital, and he will finally be free of pain.”

“How do you do this? I’ve had to deliver dead babies and it was NEVER easy.”

“People ask me that a lot. I had to put my own dog down a couple of months ago, but doing it at home in familiar surroundings is much less stressful than in a veterinary office. You’re alleviating their suffering and that’s what matters.”

Dr. Jessica went over cremation options. Memorial cremation is done with other pets so the cremains are not separate. A private cremation is done alone and costs more, but the cremains are exclusively those of your pet. The funeral home she used was a family business and “very meticulous.” She would transport him to the funeral home; they would call her in about a week to pick up the urn and she would deliver it to us.

I carried Baxter downstairs and laid him on the blanket she’d provided. She introduced herself to him, speaking softly while stroking his head and getting acquainted. The night had left him exhausted but he leaned into her hand as if she was an old friend.

We started feeding him the beloved Pill Pockets as a distraction. Peg said, “He can have as many as he wants since it won’t make any difference.” (Glycerol is the second substance in the Pill Pockets ingredient list and he got runny poop if he had too many at one sitting.) He didn’t notice when she injected the narcotic into the skin on his back, having downed half the bag.

He became groggy and eventually lay down on the blanket. Dr. Jessica normally puts the catheter in the hind leg so the family can comfort their loved one without an obstruction, but Baxter wasn’t having any of that, so she opted for his front leg. She shaved a patch in his foreleg with a small clipper, then applied the topical anesthetic. She inserted the catheter after a few minutes and he didn’t flinch, then injected the Propofol.

“He’s asleep now. When you are ready, I will give him the last injection.”

We sat with Baxter, saying our goodbyes and trying not to cry. I nodded to Dr. Jessica. She pushed the plunger of the syringe and waited a few minutes before listening to his chest with a stethoscope. He was gone and now at peace.

She took out something that looked like soft plaster and pressed his front paw into it. It would harden over the next several days. I tried to carve Mr. B in it but I lacked the manual dexterity and a proper tool, so I left it at “B.”

“I’m going to step outside and you let me know when you are ready.”

Baxter never liked to be cuddled when he was alive; he would squirm until I put him down. I held him in my arms as this was my last chance to do so.

Peg let Dr. Jessica know we were ready. She brought in a basket and we put him in one of his favorite blankets. We thanked her again and she left. Then we cried in each other’s arms, mourning his loss but thankful for the extended time we had with him.

The next morning I felt guilty because I’d gotten to sleep through the night. I swore I heard his collar jingling as if he was shaking himself after waking up. “It’s all right; there’s no need to feel guilty. I had a good life with you.”

I still leave the upstairs hall light on out of habit; I expect to see him when we come up for bed. I say, “I miss you, Boo-Boo,” every day. I haven’t had the heart to clean the dog boogers off the window he always looked out during our car rides. We kept hair from his tail, the last necktie he got from the groomers and, for now, all his dog beds.

I don’t want another dog right now, maybe never. I want to travel now that I’m retired, and it’s hard to leave a beloved family member when they are healthy, let alone aging and blind, even with someone you trust implicitly. Selfish, I know but I also don’t want to risk dying first; I’d half hoped Baxter and I would go out together

Maybe I’ll go volunteer at the shelter where we got him 11 years ago, leading myself into temptation, perhaps?

My next blog post will be our memories of Baxter.

RESOURCES

If you or someone you know has an ailing companion and want to give them a peaceful trip across the Rainbow Bridge, check out this link: In Home Pet Directory

Lightning Strike Pet Loss Support: Founded in 1996 after the death of “a grumpy 19-pound longhair Maine Coon tabby cat,“ Lightning Strike provides “lightning-fast” pet loss support and grief counseling for pet lovers grieving over the death of a pet, a dying pet, sick pet, or a lost pet.” Resources include online forums, list of pet loss books, and live chats.

Chance’s Spot Pet Loss and Grief Support: Started in 1998 after the passing of the founder’s beloved English Setter, Chance. “Chance’s Spot provides an online support forum, publications on pet loss, hotline numbers, and referrals to anyone who needs help to cope with the grief associated with the death of a pet.”

Tree Givers: “Plant a tree in memory of a lost pet as the perfect, thoughtful memorial for friends & family members.” Plant one, five or ten trees on public land in any state; certificates available framed, unframed or digital starting at $24.95.

The Pet Loss Support Page: Directory of Support Groups, Counselors, and Pet Cemeteries in the US, Canada, UK and Australia/New Zealand

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Scents and Scents-ability

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What I started writing at 2am the night after my knee surgery

There are many unforgettable scents I’ve come across throughout life that I can imagine just by my memories. How many do you recognize?

Babies and puppies have their own warm, comforting scent, like that new car smell without the chemical outgassing.

The Sonoran desert in Arizona is home to a variety of hardy aromatic plants: desert willow; creosote bush; mesquite trees. I still remember what Sabino Canyon, northwest of Tucson, smells like in the searing midday heat.

I found a decaying animal carcass along the Route 80 bypass just above Spring Canyon Road in Bisbee, Arizona when I was eight. There wasn’t much left, just a ribcage and desiccated but still rotting flesh, but the acrid smell was unforgettable.

Dead skunk in the middle of the road. Stinkin’ to high heaven!

I sometimes roamed the drainage ditch that ran along Tombstone Canyon in Bisbee. I would build earth dams across areas of flowing water, creating a reservoir I’d then destroy with imaginary Allied bombers (usually a stick). I remember the smell of wild mint among the sparse fauna. Now I would be afraid of contracting some water-borne illness like Naegleria, the brain-eating amoeba.

Eddie Rojo’s tavern in Bisbee had a shuffleboard table I’d play with while my stepfather indulged in his favorite pastime, soaking his regrets in Falstaff. The table had fine sawdust in the gutters which competed with the smell of old beer in the tavern’s floorboards. I liked sliding the heavy pucks up and down the butcher block playing surface that was smooth as glass.

I used to have an olfactory hallucination at night when I was little, which I can only describe it as “spoiled mustard.” I’ve never run across that smell when awake.

My grade school in Arizona had an auditorium that doubled as the lunch room. Kids’ sack lunches sat there unrefrigerated until noon. The pungent, nauseating odor coming from the contents usually made me puke on the table. The lukewarm milk cartons also had their own unsettling smell.

Mrs. Frost, my first-grade teacher, wore a very distinct perfume which I found very comforting. Thirty years later I instantly recognized that scent when my medical assistant Eileen wore it one day. She told me it was White Shoulders, created during the 1940s and still popular.

There was nothing like the smell of ditto ink coming from a warm test paper, fresh off the printer. We hold them against our faces and inhale before starting the exam. Generations of schoolchildren will never experience it.

I don’t remember my grandparents’ concrete house in Puerto Rico having window screens. At night our beds were enveloped in tents of mosquito netting laced with pyrethrum, an insect repellent derived from chrysanthemums. I can still smell it.

One didn’t need a clothes dryer in the desert, even in the winter. One of life’s greatest pleasures is taking in the fresh scent of bedsheets or clothes after they’ve dried outside, something no laundry product can match.

We were friends with a couple that had seven children, five of which were crammed into several beds in a small room. The mattresses were old and likely peed on several times over the years. I remember being 8 years old sleeping on one of those mattresses with one of their girls while our parents played cards into the night.

Back during the 1950s and 1960s most doctors’ offices had a strong antiseptic smell, most likely from isopropyl alcohol. It always made me think of those long, reusable hypodermic needles soaking in those stainless steel trays and the big glass jars of cotton balls and tongue depressors.

The scent of blooming flowers in the spring – roses, lilacs, apple and cherry blossoms – represent new life after a soul-killing winter.

That comforting, clean air smell after a fresh rain is called petrichor. Some it comes from lightning splitting atmospheric nitrogen and oxygen, which recombine into ozone and nitric oxide. Another component is geosmin, produced by Actinomycetes, a bacteria found in soil.

Most people in temperate areas look forward to burning dead leaves in the fall. Those of us with chronic lung disease dread the smoke and many municipalities have outlawed open burning. Burning the evil weed, along with the red eyes, giggling and munchies, is a different story.

Wood-fire smoke comes in several varieties:

the hot, dry wood smell of a sauna
cozy when sitting around a fireplace in winter or a fire pit in the summer
oddly unsettling when it permeates everything in a house that has been heated solely by firewood
terrifying when it comes from the raging forest fire beyond the horizon

The air at sub-zero temperatures has a crisp smell largely because there are so few odiferous molecules in the air.

Everyone remembers having the pine scent of a fresh Christmas tree filling the house. I stopped getting real trees thirty years ago because the pesticides and preservatives caused bronchospasm. I take solace in the bags of cinnamon-scented pine cones that Jewel sells every year.

The dead mouse in the wall behind our range had an unmistakable musty odor. My two “helpers,” a cranky Lhasa-Apso and a greyhound with “a great nose,” tasked with helping me locate the carcass, sat in the family room and laughed while I drilled three holes between the studs before finding it.

The pseudomembrane of the upper respiratory tract produced by diphtheria infection is said to smell like a wet mouse, though I’ve never encountered either.

I reached a milestone in 7^th grade when I realized that foul body odor was coming frtom my own armpits and it was time to start using deodorant.

The eye-watering rotten-egg smell of hydrogen sulfide, is “rancid” when in reference to a particularly noxious fart, but “smells like money” if you own a petrochemical refinery.

I stopped at a turnout on a back country two-lane and sat at the lone concrete picnic table under the trees. I noticed a slightly sweet but pungent odor nearby; it came from a cool, dusky pile of human feces about ten feet away. Someone must have been really desperate to drop a deuce on the side of the road. Well, when you gotta go…

There is absolutely nothing like the intoxicating, primal scent of an aroused woman’s vaginal secretions, now indelicately known as “wet-ass pussy.” I’ll never forget my first encounter, forbidden yet exciting! Regrettably, women lose that aspect of arousal with age.

Not everyone likes it; many young men who lack both discriminating olfactory epithelium and finesse find it “disgusting.” The “personal hygiene” industry preys on women’s insecurities to sell crap, promising they’ll smell “fresh as a daisy.”

Fresh semen has its own unique odor, though I doubt most women find it alluring.

Human blood has a slightly metallic odor, especially when encountered in large quantities, such as after a postpartum hemorrhage, or on the floor around the operating table on which the dead guy with a .22 hole through his heart lay.

Para-dichlorobenzene gives mothballs and urinal cakes their pungent smell, which I’ve also detected in a couple of really poorly-maintained home bathrooms.

The black knobs on the lids of some cooking pots are made of phenolic resin, made from combining phenol and formaldehyde. They emit a very unpleasant odor after being heated in an oven.

It’s been said everyone has opinions and they all stink. Also that politicians and dirty diapers need to be changed frequently for the same reason.

Photo Credits © Can Stock Photo
Lavender field: Ariec
Sonoran Desert: ancientimages
Lilacs: sagasan
Arctic: carlosobriganti
Fabric vulva: mikhail_sheleg
Other photos: my collection

What a difference 50 years makes

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“Inside every old person is a young person wondering what the hell happened.”
Unknown but perceptive

My 50^th high school class reunion is this year. The prospect is at once fascinating (I never thought I’d live this long) and terrifying (some memories never die). But I started to think about those who attended their 50^th reunion in 1972. We had our whole lives ahead of us while they were headed into the twilight. Now it’s our turn to ride into the sunset.

The First Fifty Years

The class of 1922 lived through two world wars, the 1918 Spanish flu pandemic and the Great Depression. They were the Greatest Generation, lauded for their patriotism, sacrifice and service, and the grandparents of my generation, the oft-maligned Baby Boomers. During their half-century, they witnessed profound changes in technology, life and culture.

Automobiles went from the Model-T through the gangster cars of the 1930s, the two-ton hulking sedans of the 1940s, the T-Bird and the ’55 Caddy with enormous fins, the Corvette, the early ‘60s Lincoln Continental convertible with suicide doors, the Ford Mustang, to the 1969 Chevy Camaro Bumblebee.

The Wright Brothers’ first airplane became the open-cockpit biplane, the twin-engine propeller driven Douglas DC-3, the Boeing 707 with four jet engines, and then the Boeing 747, which debuted in 1969.

Only sixty-six years separated the flight at Kitty Hawk and the first moon landing.

Musical genres exploded over those 50 years: gagtime, big-band, country and western, swing, jazz, easy-listening, early rock-and-roll, R&B, and what we call “classic rock.” Duke Ellington. Benny Goodman. Count Basie. Sinatra. Elvis. Buddy Holly. The Beatles and the Rolling Stones. Woodstock was in 1969, three years before their 50^th, but they were horrified by those “goddam hippies with their free love and drugs!”

Recorded music started out as wax cylinders played on a wind-up gramophone in the late 1800s. Emile Berliner created the first flat disc recording in 1892. The heavy and brittle shellac 78 rpm records in monaural became popular in 1925. By the 1950s 33⅓ rpm vinyl stereo records replaced “78s.” 45 rpm discs offered cheap singles. Reel-to-reel tapes were reduced in size to the cassette and the 8-track. The in-dash cassette player debuted in 1968

Telephones, popular since the early 20^th century, became smaller and available in colors other than black. Dials were replaced by push button “touch-tone.” Bell Systems introduced the Picturephone at the 1964 World’s Fair in New York, but it cost $160/month to lease one of these puppies.

The heavy floor-model radios of the 1920s became smaller and portable over the next 40 years. Transistors replaced vacuum tubes, making radios portable, like the cheap Japanese pocket models with the terrible earpiece we remember from high school.

Television, which started as a toy for the rich in the 1920s and 1930s, became more popular and affordable during the 1940s. Screens became bigger during the 1950s and we could get color televisions by the mid-1960s. People with a lot of disposable income could buy an all-in-one console with a television, AM/FM radio, and a record player. Try stealing THAT from someone’s house!

ENIAC, the first electronic programmable computer, was introduced in 1945. It weighed 27 tons, took up 1,800 square feet and needed 150 kW of electricity to operate. The “slightly smaller” UNIVAC computer (only 14.5 tons) debuted in 1951, followed by IBM’s mainframe computers into the 1960s.

Smallpox and polio vaccines prevented devastating illnesses. Our mothers lined us all up for the smallpox inoculation that left dime-sized scars on our left arms. We got our oral polio vaccines in sugar cubes. Fluoridated water, the bane of conspiracy theorists, helped prevent tooth decay in people, regardless of socioeconomic status. Government inspections of our food supply have greatly diminished, but not entirely eliminated, food-borne illnesses. Infant and maternal mortalities have dropped precipitously!

What a time to be alive! But all mythically wonderful eras have dark sides.

The people who made it to 1972 were lucky. The life expectancy for those born in 1904 was 47 years, and only if you were white. Infant mortality was 157 per 1,000 live births. Many died from infectious diseases in the pre-antibiotic era. The common folk often worked in grueling physical jobs which left them worn out by their late 50s or early 60s. Men commonly dropped dead from “the big one” in their mid-sixties.

Racism was rampant and largely accepted. D. W. Griffith’s movie Birth of a Nation spurred the revival of the Ku Klux Klan during the 1920s and lynching was common. George Wallace promised “Segregation today, segregation tomorrow, segregation forever!”‘ It took the Voting Rights Act of 1965 to force Southern States to comply with the 15^th Amendment, ratified 95 years previously.

Society expected little of women other than to stay at home, raise children and obey their husbands. Few women worked outside the home until WWII, when they were called into factories to replace the men sent overseas. When the war ended they were expected to return to their traditional roles so the menfolk could “provide for their families.”

Still, we remember the good more than the bad and the ugly.

THE SECOND FIFTY YEARS
My classmates are part of the Baby Boomers, maligned by Gen Xers and Millennials (with some justification). We’ve probably seen the extensions and improvements of prior advances more than truly phenomenal innovations but neither should be dismissed as irrelevant.

Those classic cars of yore were also death traps. Accident reports of people flying through windshields or being crushed by engine blocks, children being decapitated by metal glove box doors, and occupants being incinerated by ruptured gas tanks were common. Ralph Nader’s damning book, Unsafe at Any Speed: The Designed-In Dangers of the American Automobile, criticized the auto industry’s resistance to safety concerns and led to the creation of the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration in 1970. Research and engineering resulted in mandatory seat belts, crumple zones, safety cages and airbags minimizing passenger injury. More recently, manufacturers have introduced lane departure warnings, collision avoidance systems, automatic braking and stability control.

Air travel, once only available to the well-heeled, is now accessible to everyone. Aircraft safety has improved greatly since the 1950s so that you’re more likely to die from riding a bicycle, driving a car, or being struck by lightning.

While we haven’t returned to the moon (yet), we’ve witnessed the development of the space shuttle, the International Space Station and the Hubble and James Webb telescopes. NASA developed technologies we take for granted: Lasik, functional artificial limbs, the insulin pump, wireless headsets and the Dust Buster. But we also have a billionaire giving rich people with more money than sense carnival rides into “space” on top of a dick rocket.

I still think Classic Rock is among the best, but I switched to jazz as I’ve aged. Disco was amusing. There was some good music during the 1980s and maybe the 1990s, but, at least to me, the only things rap needs are a rhyming dictionary and uncontrolled anger. Most of us remember that fateful day when we became our parents, asking our kids, “What is that shit you’re listening to?” Maybe rap is the 21^st century version of 60’s protest songs.

Digital storage media – the compact disc and digital video – replaced vinyl records, cassettes and videotape. Apple Inc. went further and gave us even more compact storage and playback with the various iterations of the iPod. My 160G iPod classic currently has 16051 songs loaded, enough music for more than 50 days. (Oddly enough, a younger generation has resurrected vinyl records for some obscure reason. We switched to CDs because vinyl gets scratched and your record eventually sounds like frying bacon!)

The evolution of the telephone is both a marvel of engineering and a scourge. We grew up with party lines and wired telephones (which we RENTED!). Captain Kirk’s fictional communicator became the first flip phone, was rendered obsolete by smart phones and has now returned as the foldable phone, running anywhere from $400 to $1500. Now Millennials and Gen Zers use their smart phones to do everything, except make phone calls.

The last telephone booth in New York City was taken out on May 23, 2022. I guess Clark Kent will now have to change into his Superman outfit in the bathroom of one of the 241 Starbucks. Dick Tracy’s wrist radio, once the stuff of science fiction, is now the smart watch, giving younger people another way to ignore phone calls.

Does anyone have a portable radio anymore? Does it matter? I can stream broadcasts from anywhere in the world, from Iceland to New Zealand.

Televisions have gotten bigger, lighter and with much better resolution. The “wall television” from Ray Bradbury’s Fahrenheit 451, complete with interactive capabilities, has taken over some households. We had three network channels in 1972 and maybe a couple of local stations if you lived near a large city. Now cable is ubiquitous, rapacious, aggravating. Five hundred channels and nothing to watch.

Tired of cable companies and commercials? Cellular companies are offering internet services and digital antennas provide HD programming without rabbit ears or those bulky outside aluminum UHF/VHF aerial antennas of old. Streaming services have changed viewing habits, opening up international programming to new audiences.

The guidance computer used by the Apollo 11 team had 64Kb of memory and a 0.043MHz clock speed. My first PC, which I bought in 1990 for about $3000, had a 286 processor with a blazing clock speed of 16MHz, 1MB RAM, a 30MB hard drive and ran on Windows 3.1 My 2017 Samsung Galaxy S8 has 64GB storage, 4GB RAM, four cores at 1.9 GHz and four cores at 2.35 GHz, a 1.9GHz clock speed, a 12 megapixel camera, Bluetooth connectivity and Wi-Fi capability. So my phone has 64 million times more memory, is almost 45,000 faster and can perform hundreds of millions more instructions than the Apollo computer. Advanced technology so one can watch cat videos while sitting on the toilet.

We’ve been through an epidemic and a pandemic. HIV/AIDS appeared visibly in 1981, although the earliest known case of HIV infection was identified in a man who died in Kinshasa, Congo, in 1959. Back then HIV infection was a death sentence; then we discovered some infected people survived. Now we have drugs that make HIV virus levels undetectable.

The SARS COV-2 (coronavirus) pandemic started in late 2018. As of October 1, 2022, coronavirus has infected more than 623 million people and killed 6.5 million. Three COVID vaccines – Pfizer, Moderna and Johnson & Johnson – were developed in less than a year, a feat that in the past has taken years if not decades. (And no, 5G does not make your body more susceptible to coronavirus infection and Bill Gates isn’t trying to microchip your body with the vaccine. That smartphone in your hand and social media already track everything you do, but you’d rather die than give them up, right?)

The next fifty years
Assuming humanity has pulled its collective head out of its ass and not destroyed itself in a nuclear Holocaust or from making the planet uninhabitable, the Class of 2022 will have lived through their own set of wondrous advances by 2072. While visions of the future often miss wildly, I’d like to offer my own predictions.

Self-driving cars won’t run into pedestrians or other vehicles, and will be powered by something other than fossil fuels.

Most, if not all, towns and cities will be eco-friendly, running on solar power, like Babcock Ranch in Florida, which weathered Hurricane Ian with no disruptions.

Cancers therapies will include genetic manipulation, nanoparticles and biologics with little or no adverse effects on the patient. People will wonder why we used barbaric treatments like radiation, chemotherapy and major surgeries.

Society will be better prepared for pandemics and there will be minimal whining about public health mandates focused on “the greater good.”

No one will understand why we tolerated homelessness for so long.

Cubs fans will still have to wait another 44 years for a World Series victory.

Taking the Wrong Way Home

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A pregnancy starts when a Fallopian tube sweeps up an egg like a shop vac and sends it down towards an army of sperm lying in wait. While it takes one sperm to fertilize an egg, it takes hundreds of them to break down the zona pellucida, the egg’s barrier to fertilization.

When that happens, the lucky bastard yells, “I’ve got you now, my pretty,” and thrusts himself into her. Now joined in holy matrimony, the fertilized egg – a zygote – takes a short honeymoon trek down the tube, developing into a blastocyst on its way the uterus. There it implants, sets up housekeeping and watches Netflix for the next nine months.

But that doesn’t always work that way. The blastocyst may attach itself somewhere outside the uterus in an “ectopic” location that wasn’t designed to grow a full-term baby. Those sites include the Fallopian tube (the most common); the cornua (where the tube attaches to the uterus); the cervix; an ovary or inside the abdomen.

An ectopically implanted pregnancy is more likely in a woman whose tubes have been damaged by infection, endometriosis, or previous abdominal surgery, including tubal ligation. Using an IUD for contraception increases a woman’s risk. Even a woman who has had a hysterectomy but with an intact ovary can become pregnant, likely earning her a place in the tabloids.

An abnormally implanted pregnancy can only grow so much before the tissue around the implantation site blows apart and all hell breaks loose. Internal bleeding can be massive and a woman will die from hemorrhagic shock if not treated promptly.

The Arab Spanish physician Abulcasis (Arabic name: Abul Qasim Khalaf ibn al-Abbas al-Zahrawi al-Ansari), was an impressive and accomplished dude who wrote Al Tasrif, a thirty volume medical encyclopedia, earning him a place among the “fathers of surgery.” He made the first known reference to ectopic pregnancy in the 10^th century. Other physicians reported ectopic pregnancies during the next 900 years, largely discovered at autopsy as it was invariable fatal.

But by the mid 1800’s doctors were becoming more aware of the signs and symptoms of ectopic pregnancy. Timely surgical intervention saved the lives of many women but definitively differentiating an ectopic pregnancy from other conditions – an ovarian cyst, endometriosis, or appendicitis – remained problematic for the next 100+ years.

Such was the state of diagnostic abilities when I started my residency in 1979. A woman who came to the Emergency Room in obvious hemorrhagic shock – high pulse and low blood pressure – went straight to surgery. But if she presented with lower abdominal pain, a positive pregnancy test and sometimes brown vaginal bleeding – and was hemodynamically stable – we tried our best to confirm an ectopic pregnancy. The probability increased if, on pelvic examination, one felt a painful mass on either side of a normal-sized uterus, but there was still a 20% chance it was something else.

Ultrasound had been used clinically since the mid-1950s, but images weren’t great, appearing more like abstract paintings than pelvic organs. Radiologists’ interpretations were often ambiguous and usually unreliable when proclaimed with absolute certainty. One of my attending physicians opened up a woman’s abdomen after the radiologist said, “There is definitely an ectopic pregnancy here,” only to find absolutely nothing.

If we were still unsure and the woman agreed to it, we’d try doing a culdocentesis. That involved sticking an 18-gauge needle through the back of the vagina below the cervix, then pulling back on the plunger of a large syringe. (Yes, it’s as painful as it sounds, even after injecting local anesthetic into the area.) Sometimes we were lucky. If the syringe filled with “non-clotting” blood (blood that had already clotted and then broken down), we knew she was bleeding internally and likely had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. If culdocentesis wasn’t successful and we still weren’t sure, we took the woman to the operating room for diagnostic laparoscopy sparing the woman an abdominal incision if everything looked clean.

Tubal pregnancies are usually dark purple blobs, ranging in size from a pomegranate seed to a breakfast sausage, which may be leaking a little blood or actively hemorrhaging. There’s usually a small piece of placental tissue among the clot in the tube, but nothing that remotely resembles a fetus. I witnessed one notable exception during my residency. A tiny, live fetus, about the size of a grain of rice, was moving in the small gestational sac that had been expelled from the end of the tube. And no, there was – and still – no way to implant it into the uterus! Placental tissue, once disrupted, won’t reattach itself in the uterus.

We had three surgical options:

Opening the tube over the affected area, emptying out the contents and delicately sewing the incision shut, making sure there was no bleeding. The tissue was fragile and it was like sewing two sticks of room temperature butter together.
Taking out the damaged section of tube, leaving the ends for a skilled microsurgeon to put back together later on.
Taking out the entire tube because a badly-damaged tube made another ectopic pregnancy more likely.

A lot has changed since I started residency more than forty years ago.

Diagnostic testing

Simple urine or blood pregnancy tests, first developed in 1976 and referred to as “qualitative”, look for the presence or absence of human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) a hormone produced by placental tissue. A positive test indicates a pregnancy somewhere in a woman’s body. A negative test usually means there is no pregnancy but the test will be “falsely negative” if hormone levels are too low to detect.

Structurally, hCG is made up of two pieces: the alpha subunit (α-hCG) which is also common to ovarian and thyroid hormones, and the unique beta subunit (β-hCG). Starting in the early 1980s, laboratories were able to assay blood for small amounts of this beta unit, the “quantitative β-hCG test.” We used the changes in hormone level over several days to monitor very early pregnancy development, hoping to distinguish normal pregnancies (single and multiple) from abnormal ones (blighted ovum, miscarriage, ectopic, the varied forms of molar pregnancy, or placental fragments leftover in the uterus after a miscarriage).

Measured in milli-International Units per milliliter (mIU/mL), hCG becomes detectable around the third week after a missed menstrual period. hCG levels should double every 48 hours in a normal pregnancy and transvaginal ultrasound should be able detect a gestational sac in the uterus at around 1,500-2,000 mIU/mL. One can reliably rule out an ectopic pregnancy after detecting a fetal pole (the earliest evidence of a developing embryo) with a heartbeat. (Simultaneous intrauterine and ectopic pregnancies occur spontaneously in less than 1:30,000 naturally occurring pregnancies, but that incidence increases to 1:100 to 1:500 with in vitro fertilization.)

hCG levels that rise more slowly, plateau or decline usually indicate an abnormal pregnancy. Combined with serial ultrasound examinations will lead to diagnosing:

A blighted ovum if there is an empty gestational sac with no fetal pole;
An inevitable miscarriage if there is a fetal pole larger than 7mm with no heartbeat
A miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy if there is only placental tissue in the uterus at levels where we would expect to see a gestational sac.

If physicians can’t rule out an ectopic pregnancy, they’ll scrape tissue out of the uterus (a D&C) and ask the hospital pathology department to look at the tissue while still in the operating room. If there’s only endometrial tissue and no chorionic villi, the vascular bridge between the uterus and placenta, there’s an ectopic lurking somewhere.

Imaging

Ultrasound image resolution has progressed from vague static images like this:

to detailed, real-time images such as this fetus (the four lines in the black area is the umbilical cord).

Color flow Doppler ultrasound can show blood moving in and out of an ectopic pregnancy in the adnexa, the area next to the uterus, which is helpful if the sonographer can’t distinguish a definite mass. (This, however, is Doppler flow of a heart, the only royalty-free image I could find.)

So, when a radiologist tells me, “There’s a 2cm mass with blood flow in the right adnexa, nothing but endometrial tissue in the uterus and a lot of echogenic material in the cul-de-sac running up the para-colic gutter,” I know I can skip the laparoscopy and open her up.

Surgical treatment

However, surgical treatment has also changed. Tubal ligation was the only surgical procedure we did in the early 1980s. By the early 1990s, physicians with far more balls than me, along with surgical instrument innovations, were starting to take things out of people laparoscopically. Removing an inflamed appendix became a simple outpatient procedure. Taking out a gallbladder full of stones using a laparoscope was far easier and less traumatic than the old days which required an incision along the right rib cage from stem to stern, and digging deep while your poor intern (me) tried to retract a six-inch deep wall of fat with a “Weinberg Vagotomy Retractor,” otherwise known as Joe’s Hoe (and it is as big as the garden tool).

“Pull harder, dammit!”
“I’m pulling as hard as I can!”

Operative laparoscopic surgery had a steep learning curve in the early days and I was skeptical of the newfangled approach to ectopic pregnancy. I was suckered into assisting two youngsters with far more confidence than ability and both endeavors lasted two hours. One insisted in putting a trocar (which looks like a tent stake) through the abdomen in the vicinity of the inferior epigastric artery, despite my pleas to reconsider. She wasn’t concerned with the pulsating stream of blood and continued prospecting for the ectopic pregnancy.

I got a call one Saturday at midnight from the ER doc at a small hospital in Nebraska, 70 miles away from where I was working.

“I have a woman here with a ruptured ectopic pregnancy and I want to transfer her.”
“You don’t have anyone there who can deal with it?”
“Well, the general surgeon comes here on Wednesdays but I don’t think she’ll hold out until then. I’ve started a unit of blood and the ambulance is here.”

I was working as a locum tenens in someone else’s practice. I called the senior partner since he was rather protective of the practice’s reputation and I didn’t want to step on any toes. He wasn’t happy but met me in the Emergency Room. The woman arrived about 1:30am and, after introductions, examination and discussion, we were in the operating room at about 2:00am.

Setting up for an operative laparoscopy takes at least half an hour or more after the patient goes to sleep. The equipment includes:

a video camera and two monitors
the laparoscope light source
the CO₂ insufflator used to blow up the abdomen like a balloon so the surgeon has room to work
an electrocautery unit
reusable instruments like the laparoscope and the insufflation needle
an array of expensive, disposable stuff like operating ports, instruments to cauterize vascular pedicles, a combination irrigation/suction device hooked up to room suction and a bag of saline,
and a uterine manipulator, which requires putting the woman in stirrups, putting on the surgical drapes, using a speculum to find and dilate the cervix before inserting it into the uterine cavity.

Laparoscopic surgery starts with putting in the insufflating needle just inside the belly button, the thinnest part of the abdominal wall, then filling the abdomen with enough CO₂ so there’s room enough to work. After that, the surgeon inserts at least three or four ports in the abdomen: a 10mm for the laparoscope; a 5mm just above the pubic bone for a wand to move the innards around; and 5mm or 7.5mm ports on either side for operating instruments and grasping. (I have six abdominal scars from my robotic prostatectomy.) Click here for a great overview of laparoscopic trocar placement.

Older ports consisted of a stainless steel trocar with a pyramidal end like a tent stake inside a stainless steel sleeve which one pushed this through small incisions, taking care not to puncture the bowel, the bladder or the aorta. Newer ports are disposable plastic with more blunt trocars to minimize the chance of damage, but they take a little longer to work through the abdominal wall.

So, after setting up, gently and deliberately excising the damaged portion of tube, sucking out blood and clot, irrigating the pelvis, inspecting to make sure everything is clean and hemostatic, taking all the instruments out and closing the incisions, we were done about 90 minutes later.

My approach to an ectopic pregnancy in the good old days was direct. I’d make a small abdominal incision, grab the tube with a Babcock clamp, remove the offending ectopic, clean out the blood and clots in the pelvis, inspect the other tube and ovary, and then close her up in 20-30 minutes.

It’s one of many reasons I’m happy to pass the baton to a younger generation.

Medical Treatment

Methotrexate, a drug initially used to treat cancer and then rheumatoid arthritis, is sometimes used to treat unruptured ectopic pregnancy. There are stringent criteria for its use – a stable and reliable patient, a mass less than 3.5cm, hCG < 5,000 mIU/ml, and no detectable cardiac activity – and the woman must be monitored closely with serial hCG levels. Success rates are reported to be around 90% when used appropriately.

The emergency room physician at a small hospital in Tennessee called me around 11:30 pm on a Sunday night. A 42-year-old woman came in complaining of vaginal bleeding for a week and severe pain in her right lower abdomen. “She has a positive pregnancy test; her hemoglobin is 8 and her pulse is about 110.” A normal hemoglobin level for a non-pregnant woman is 12-16 gm/dl; even in pregnancy the level should be 11 or so.

I walked into the examination room and met a slightly pale woman on a gurney; her husband stood next to her.

“Hi I’m Dr. Rivera. I assume the ER doc has told you why I’m here?”
“Yes, he told me I’m going to need surgery.”
“Well, that’s a good place to start. Tell me what’s been going on.”
“I started bleeding off and on last Monday. I didn’t think much of it, but it hasn’t stopped, and I started having pain in my side tonight, so I came here.”
“Have you felt any pain in your shoulders?”
“Yes, my right shoulder started hurting two days ago.”
She noticed the look on my face and asked, “That’s not good, is it?”
“Not really. If you’ve had internal bleeding the blood can irritate your diaphragm and your body interprets that as shoulder pain.”
“Yes, but how can I be pregnant? I had my tubes tied thirteen years ago!”
“Well, tubal ligations have an inherent failure rate. I saw one woman who got pregnant after her tubal. I took out her tubes after delivery and found an inch gap in both tubes.”
“Really!”

So I took her to the operating room. My scrub tech was the Czechoslovakian grandmother who always made sure I was well-fed when I made rounds in the morning. I was sure I didn’t need to start with a diagnostic laparoscopy and went straight to an abdominal incision. She had 1300cc of blood and clot in her abdomen from a ruptured ectopic; I took out what was left of both Fallopian tubes. By now she should be menopausal and safe from that sort of misadventure.

For all the progress we’ve made, some want to turn back the clock. Some Right-to-Life types have conflated treating an ectopic pregnancy with abortion, saying intervention isn’t necessary. The author of that article has since apologized, but the damage has already been done and such misinformation has already spread.

Graphics © Can Stock Photo
Explosion: Jag_cz
Fertilization: stockdevil
Ectopic Sites: normaals
Ectopic: Kateryna_Kon
Fetal Sonogram: faustasyan
Doppler: faustasyan

Notes from Dr. Dave

Musings from forty plus years as an OB/GYN and a writer.